I would rather do nothing and be happy than do something that I won’t love
Just another WordPress.com weblogmy first day of blogging, again
I’ve been absent in the blogging world since year 2009 was created by God. I though I can manage to blog anytime but I failed. So then, this was my first time that again open my blogging platform, wordpress and start my own blog AGAIN.
First day? I actually tapped Mc Donalds wi-fi in Ortigas while I am having my breakfast. I arrived in Ortigas a bit early and that I decided to have a zip of eight-o-clock orange and bite some Sausage Mc Muffin while waiting for our ojt office to be open. Think, I am here blogging 0640H and our office will be open at around 0800H-0830H, so I’ll be staying here in the wifi center for about 2hours 
yeahey~ I actually don’t want to go to office now that I found that working in the office is so boring. I am doing this just for the so-called requirements in school enabling us to work in the industry about 300 hours. At first I am so excited working in our company here in Ortigas but then I realized that I am not at “fun” anymore that i don’t want to do my work anymore. Any reason? yes I have. I am expecting something more in their system. I honestly hate slow connections in the internet, database servers, ftp servers, and all things that comes so slow that will even bore you to death.
Anyhow, I have a couple of things to do in the office and in the academe that I should cope up with that. We are a bit late in terms of development on our thesis and were about late on our development in the office. I want to spearhead the development on both side that I don’t even know where to start. 
I want to be a leader that is patient, I want to be a leader of service but how can I? (
That’s all for know I guess that I will be running out of words to say on my first day of blogging, again. nyahahahaha
Wednesday, out of place
It was a regular Wednesday that I had my first day of classes. Before hand I am planning to stay in Robinsons Manila after class to take my lunch, stroll a bit, and gaze into the big screen. But as I have called a friend early this morning, she will call me for a talk by 2pm so I chose not to see a movie anymore and might as well do my movie watching after the call. Robinsons Manila As I am riding the jeepney, I am pretty unconscious of what I am doing. I have two points that is battling inside my head. To go or not to go? I stayed in the jeepney as it bounds to Quiapo. Went off at the back of PCU and walked going through Robinsons Manila. “Yehey~ Atlast I am here”, I said as I am thinking of where to go. I saw a tarpaulin saying, “Job Fair, April 22-23, 2009 at the Atrium hall”. I planned going there after later as I board the escalator going somewhere. I am looking for mobile phones that I soon am using. I want a change, so then I want a phone that can be used for Wi-fi in which I really enjoyed having. I am thinking of purchasing a Nokia E63 or a Samsung OMNIA. I can cash out 27k in one day so I am looking for a zero interest credit. Anyhow, after I got to see those mobile phones and Digital Cameras on shelves. I had my mouth swell with those gadgets, coz’ I’m a technology addict and I am looking for the right time to enjoy with those part-time gadgets around. I took my lunch at Kenny Rogers. I ordered Roast Chicken solo A and BOTTOMLESS COKE ZERO, I repeat, COKE ZERO. When it was my turn to ask those around to refill it, first refill I got was a Regular Coke, next refill was Coke Light, next thing was ICED TEA, and lastly they got it right, COKE ZERO. I drank all of them; I am shy to let them refill it with the correct soda. kewl right? Afterwhich, I had to go home as I saw outside, rain is pouring and not just rain but RAIINNNN… I decided to stroll more as I need to visit my friend. Ngayon ko lang narealize na kakaunti lang pala ang CR sa Robinsons Manila, naikot ko ang Robinsons Manila naghahanap ng CR dahil sa soda na ininom ko At narealize ko na ang foundation ng Robinsons Manila. It was a big FHAIL~, yeah a big failure to the Architect and Engineers who designed the layout “scaffolds” of Robinsons Manila. You know why? First, I had to roam around the whole place just to look for a restroom. Next, as the rain pours hard, waters are coming in and out of the mall. As in out of the tiles and ceiling of Robinsons Manila. Big Failure for you guys, sorry to say. I smiled as I see helpers who are wiping the floor, dropping to their balde the water. [sorry, sadyang hindi ko lang maisip English ng balde]. I saw about 3 stops wherein they’re having the same work. Haha. Anyway, after I got into the restroom, I went home as I went home, roads are pretty flooded as I looked for a non-flooded area which I walked. Cool experience, for me. Haha. That’s it!
Tawag niya
Hindi ko mawari kung saan ko ilalagay ang sarili ko. Gusto ko magbigay ng reaksyon ukol sa kantang “still calls me son” na sadyang pumukaw sa akin ang kanyang isinasaad na letra. Dun nalang sa titulo mismo ng kanta, Still calls me Son na kahit na anong hapdi ng pagkadapa mo, kahit na anong kalokohan ang sadyang nagawa mo dito sa mundo meron pa kayang tatawag sa iyo upang bumalik sa kanya? Isang kaibigan na magliligtas sa iyo sa kapahamakan, isang kaibigan na sasaluhin ka sa iyong pagbagsak sa lupa, isang kaibigan na sadyang ibinuwis ang kanyang sarili para lang mailigtas tayo.
Sadyang maganda rin itong pagninilay sa buhay na ating tinahak na. Sa panahon ng Kwaresma inaalala natin kung gaano niya tayo kamahal. Yung tunay natin na kaibigan na kung saan kahit na anong sama ng budhi natin patuloy parin siyang tumatawag at binabanggit ang ating mga sariling pangalan. Naalala ko ang isang kwento ng isang pari noon sa Don Bosco. Ang tanging naibigay sa atin ng Dios na mismong masasabi natin na karapatan ay ang pagpapangalan sa atin. Ito’y ibinigay niya sa ating mga magulang na kung saan sila ang nagbigay sa atin nga ating mga pangalan. Yun narin ang magsisilbing pangalan natin pagharap sa kanya.
Biruin mo siya na nga yung makapangyarihan siya pa may ganang balikan tayo, tawagin tayo muli kahit na gaano na tayo kasama sa mundo. Kaya isang pilosopiya na aking sinusundan ay ang paniniwala na kahit gaano kasama ang tao mayroon at mayroon parin natitirang mabuting asal sa taong ito. Hindi mo nga lang pansin pero tanging lalabas lang ito sa least possible na event sa buhay.
Ngayon, mabuting tignan natin at iassess natin ang ating mga sarili sa kung ano na ba ang ating relasyon sa ating Diyos. Gaano ba tayo kalapit sa kanya? Baka napapalayo na tayo at ngayon tinatawag ulit niya tayo upang bumalik sa kanyang tabi. Marahil maihahalintulad natin ang ating sarili sa isang tupa na nawawala sa gitna ng pastulan, pilit sumisipol ang Pastol ngunit tayo’y nagbibingibingihan sa kanyang sipol. Marahil siguro ay kailangan natin ng malakas lakas na tawag galing sa kanya para maramdaman natin ang kanyang presensya.
Sa panahon ng kwaresma, magnilay tayo at tignan kung gaano na tayo kapalit sa Diyos. Panahon na rin na bumalik sa kanya, panahon na upang tayo’y sabihan na Kristiyano muli. Ngunit hindi lang naman sa panahon ng kwaresma na tayo’y matatanggap na kristiyano ngunit dapat natin itong gamitin sa pang araw araw nating buhay sa lupa. hanggang dito nalang ang aking munting blog para sa gabi. Maraming salamat sa pagbabasa.
Council of Green, I won
This was about me and my friends joining a competition last November. It was actually a competition made by Microsoft entitled, Microsoft Imagine cup. It was a year by year competition participated by almost all countries world wide, one would be is our country, Philippines.
I actually spearheaded my barkada to come up with one team for this event. And this would be it and we named it Council of Green. History is it that I am a part of the team, I am so happy right now that I couldn’t even start my thesis work up until. Well, maybe this would be a little fine now. thanks.
Bring forth
I can’t be the man of your dreams
In pursuit of happiness from within
Lies forth my spirit towards the ground
To face the challenge that definitely bound
I remember the lies you had
Truth that set a fire on my hand
For it prevail with moon and skies
Hope entangles all lullabies
I am a man of aspirations
For I am born for salvation
I need to be strong to lean on
To this world that I need to move on
I wont give a single cry
To a girl resembles my past
For my heart still be
with this girl in white velvet dress
Flowers at first
March 5, 2009 – It was a regular day for all of us but for me I think it is different. why? I then first gave flowers to a girl which I like/love. To think I told myself that I will never give flowers to a girl for it is not usual and for me unreasonable except that it gives an extra credit for an effort you’ve given. Yeah I find it sweet to give flowers but one thing is that flowers are just flowers. They also live like we do humans let’s just save those flowers beauty to blossom to where that creature lives in. In there it can give aesthetic aura and well may then those who see this creatures will feel the beauty of God’s creation. Stop those go green and let’s focus more on what I will do and or what I did.
I bugged out of my bed at around 8.00 and start preparing for school. I finished at about 9.00am and went to school. Luckily, I’ve seen sets of flower shops and so I asked them to arrange one for me. I bought it for short. I picked an arrangement wherein she can carry it and can be able to bring it to their retreat session. Well, rest is history as I have forgotten the most important thing of all, my letter. My plan is that my letter should be accompanied by a flower so I did.
Well, I am currently blogging this inside the LRC Main, our library. Waiting for someone to text me about the
plan
Bossh~ I just received a text from this someone. har har! bye for now.
Delivered
I actually hate the fact that she didn’t acknowledge what I did. For her it was just a shiz, an effect in other language. Hayz, hearing it seems that I may say that I am not successful this day but thinking of where I stand now well I am proud of myself.
If it happend that you saw this page I want to tell you that Good luck on your retreat and may God Bless you +
**insert emoticon here**
Jena
Isa sa magandang nangyari ay nang makilala ka
hindi ako mapakali noong una kang makita
bawat araw ay hinihintay na
nagbabakasakali na ika’y aking makasama
Sandali palang ng una tayong maging magkaibigan
sa sandaling iyon isa ng magandang dahilan
upang ibigin ang isang tulad mo
na iiyakan ko sa taong mawala sa piling ko
sadyang ikaw lang laman ng puso ko
hanggang ngayo’y ‘di mawala sa isip ko
ang iyong mga ngiti na nagbibigay kulay
sa buhay na ito na wala ng buhay
buong puso ko’y iaalay ko sa iyo
dahil sa iyo na umiikot and mundo ko
sadyang ginawa ang buhay kong ito
para mahalin ang anghel na tulad mo
hindi pa malalim ang ating pagtitinginan
kung iisipin ito’y nasa unang baitang
sa isang mantinding pagmamahalan
na nagsisimula sa simpleng magkaibigan
hanggang dito nalang ang tula ko para sa iyo
sana ito ay magustuhan mo
tanging nailathala upang maipahayag ko
ang bawat salitang sinasambit sa harap mo
Life time
How can I be free?
In this world full of fallacy
How can I be free?
If the world is just fantasy
I cannot move on from a journey of my past
I cannot live in and still never last
Who can bring light to my dark shattered world
That I cannot see anything since the day I bark the world
People save me please, that I might breathe again
To smell flowers blossoms that before I can smell
I don’t want to waste my remains here on earth
I don’t want to waste the beauty of the world
If somebody can save people like me
that still lives underground from reality
A letter to whoever he/she is
Hey, Actually I don’t know how I would get back to your memo. At first, I was thinking if I’ll be spending much time composing one and I don’t know what to inscribe even. Honestly, I don’t want to hurt you but I am on my limits now and I don’t even know how to relay to you what I am into. I am reflecting and slowly seeing a plethora of ideas, and tribulations which comes and definitely going. I don’t even know and probably comprehend why you keep advising me that you’re madly in love with me and here you are stabbing me? Wait; are you at your right feet telling me that? Loving me while hurting me? Is it love you are calling then? Is it? I don’t see the point you are having. I think you’re keeping the extremities of life and love.
Well, months past and I am still walking to a wrong path of life. Months of perpetuation of what is definitely have ended nearly at the beginning of our relationship. Those lies you’ve shared to me. Those itsie-bitsies you’re doing. But what? I defended it that I risk my all just to have you. Still remember? I guess you don’t even treasure it for once. Hope you had, or I guess you are having. But anyway, that’s was long outdated.
Honestly, I am sick and tired of putting our relationship to risk. I keep on saving it that for which people around us will not blame me for. I want to gain respect to those people around us but for this very moment I just need to look for my inner peace. Maybe this will be the time that I would find one. I am not saying that having you is like living on a hell, I still see heaven at the start but as time pass by you’re slowly changing that had to face those questions and hopefully I am answering it now. Sorry, but this time I am tired of defending, I am tired of saving us maybe we might need to breathe some air and chill. It is much better for us if we separate ways to better free our minds from sudden effects of relationship we had.
I am thankful really for having you. For once I was loved by you. For once I had emotions for someone and feel love mutually. Time can tell when will be our goodbyes and welcomes. It is for time when we see what He planned and in stored for us. Maybe our relationship was not for the better, or maybe this relationship is not working for now. For our hearts will beat again for that true gent [for me] gal for you. It is about time, it is.
Tanging Hiling
Mahal, sana andyan ka pa
Marahil hindi mo ramdam na mahal kita
Ngunit gumagawa ako ng paraan para magmahal ka
Upang tayo’y magkasama na
Hindi ako nagpapakita na gusto kita
Pero hanggat maaari andyan para masilayan ka
ang isang anghel, sa aking alaala
Hindi kayang mawala sa piling ng isa
Mahal ko, tumingin ka
Pakinggan ang bawat sinasambit kong letra
Masilayan mo sana ang lihim kong pagnanasa
nawa’y pansinin na at bigyang hustisya
Mahal kita, mahal kita
Kita mo naman diba?
Kulang ang isang tula
para makita kung gaano na
Kailan kaya ika’y mapapasakin
Kailan kaya ako’y iyong papansinin
Kailan kaya makakamit ang tamis ng pagsasama
Sana’y makamit na sa isang pagkikita
Hindi ako naghahangad ng ano mang yaman sa mundo
Kundi ang isang matamis na oo
Galing sa bibig ng isang princesang tulad mo
Na mamahalin ko gumuho man ang mundo
marapatin mong ipadama ko
Ang pagmamahal ko sa iyo
Mahal ko ito lang ang hinihiling ko
dahil, ikaw lang ang ligaya ko
