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my first day of blogging, again
I’ve been absent in the blogging world since year 2009 was created by God. I though I can manage to blog anytime but I failed. So then, this was my first time that again open my blogging platform, wordpress and start my own blog AGAIN.
First day? I actually tapped Mc Donalds wi-fi in Ortigas while I am having my breakfast. I arrived in Ortigas a bit early and that I decided to have a zip of eight-o-clock orange and bite some Sausage Mc Muffin while waiting for our ojt office to be open. Think, I am here blogging 0640H and our office will be open at around 0800H-0830H, so I’ll be staying here in the wifi center for about 2hours 
yeahey~ I actually don’t want to go to office now that I found that working in the office is so boring. I am doing this just for the so-called requirements in school enabling us to work in the industry about 300 hours. At first I am so excited working in our company here in Ortigas but then I realized that I am not at “fun” anymore that i don’t want to do my work anymore. Any reason? yes I have. I am expecting something more in their system. I honestly hate slow connections in the internet, database servers, ftp servers, and all things that comes so slow that will even bore you to death.
Anyhow, I have a couple of things to do in the office and in the academe that I should cope up with that. We are a bit late in terms of development on our thesis and were about late on our development in the office. I want to spearhead the development on both side that I don’t even know where to start. 
I want to be a leader that is patient, I want to be a leader of service but how can I? (
That’s all for know I guess that I will be running out of words to say on my first day of blogging, again. nyahahahaha
Wednesday, out of place
It was a regular Wednesday that I had my first day of classes. Before hand I am planning to stay in Robinsons Manila after class to take my lunch, stroll a bit, and gaze into the big screen. But as I have called a friend early this morning, she will call me for a talk by 2pm so I chose not to see a movie anymore and might as well do my movie watching after the call. Robinsons Manila As I am riding the jeepney, I am pretty unconscious of what I am doing. I have two points that is battling inside my head. To go or not to go? I stayed in the jeepney as it bounds to Quiapo. Went off at the back of PCU and walked going through Robinsons Manila. “Yehey~ Atlast I am here”, I said as I am thinking of where to go. I saw a tarpaulin saying, “Job Fair, April 22-23, 2009 at the Atrium hall”. I planned going there after later as I board the escalator going somewhere. I am looking for mobile phones that I soon am using. I want a change, so then I want a phone that can be used for Wi-fi in which I really enjoyed having. I am thinking of purchasing a Nokia E63 or a Samsung OMNIA. I can cash out 27k in one day so I am looking for a zero interest credit. Anyhow, after I got to see those mobile phones and Digital Cameras on shelves. I had my mouth swell with those gadgets, coz’ I’m a technology addict and I am looking for the right time to enjoy with those part-time gadgets around. I took my lunch at Kenny Rogers. I ordered Roast Chicken solo A and BOTTOMLESS COKE ZERO, I repeat, COKE ZERO. When it was my turn to ask those around to refill it, first refill I got was a Regular Coke, next refill was Coke Light, next thing was ICED TEA, and lastly they got it right, COKE ZERO. I drank all of them; I am shy to let them refill it with the correct soda. kewl right? Afterwhich, I had to go home as I saw outside, rain is pouring and not just rain but RAIINNNN… I decided to stroll more as I need to visit my friend. Ngayon ko lang narealize na kakaunti lang pala ang CR sa Robinsons Manila, naikot ko ang Robinsons Manila naghahanap ng CR dahil sa soda na ininom ko At narealize ko na ang foundation ng Robinsons Manila. It was a big FHAIL~, yeah a big failure to the Architect and Engineers who designed the layout “scaffolds” of Robinsons Manila. You know why? First, I had to roam around the whole place just to look for a restroom. Next, as the rain pours hard, waters are coming in and out of the mall. As in out of the tiles and ceiling of Robinsons Manila. Big Failure for you guys, sorry to say. I smiled as I see helpers who are wiping the floor, dropping to their balde the water. [sorry, sadyang hindi ko lang maisip English ng balde]. I saw about 3 stops wherein they’re having the same work. Haha. Anyway, after I got into the restroom, I went home as I went home, roads are pretty flooded as I looked for a non-flooded area which I walked. Cool experience, for me. Haha. That’s it!
Tawag niya
Hindi ko mawari kung saan ko ilalagay ang sarili ko. Gusto ko magbigay ng reaksyon ukol sa kantang “still calls me son” na sadyang pumukaw sa akin ang kanyang isinasaad na letra. Dun nalang sa titulo mismo ng kanta, Still calls me Son na kahit na anong hapdi ng pagkadapa mo, kahit na anong kalokohan ang sadyang nagawa mo dito sa mundo meron pa kayang tatawag sa iyo upang bumalik sa kanya? Isang kaibigan na magliligtas sa iyo sa kapahamakan, isang kaibigan na sasaluhin ka sa iyong pagbagsak sa lupa, isang kaibigan na sadyang ibinuwis ang kanyang sarili para lang mailigtas tayo.
Sadyang maganda rin itong pagninilay sa buhay na ating tinahak na. Sa panahon ng Kwaresma inaalala natin kung gaano niya tayo kamahal. Yung tunay natin na kaibigan na kung saan kahit na anong sama ng budhi natin patuloy parin siyang tumatawag at binabanggit ang ating mga sariling pangalan. Naalala ko ang isang kwento ng isang pari noon sa Don Bosco. Ang tanging naibigay sa atin ng Dios na mismong masasabi natin na karapatan ay ang pagpapangalan sa atin. Ito’y ibinigay niya sa ating mga magulang na kung saan sila ang nagbigay sa atin nga ating mga pangalan. Yun narin ang magsisilbing pangalan natin pagharap sa kanya.
Biruin mo siya na nga yung makapangyarihan siya pa may ganang balikan tayo, tawagin tayo muli kahit na gaano na tayo kasama sa mundo. Kaya isang pilosopiya na aking sinusundan ay ang paniniwala na kahit gaano kasama ang tao mayroon at mayroon parin natitirang mabuting asal sa taong ito. Hindi mo nga lang pansin pero tanging lalabas lang ito sa least possible na event sa buhay.
Ngayon, mabuting tignan natin at iassess natin ang ating mga sarili sa kung ano na ba ang ating relasyon sa ating Diyos. Gaano ba tayo kalapit sa kanya? Baka napapalayo na tayo at ngayon tinatawag ulit niya tayo upang bumalik sa kanyang tabi. Marahil maihahalintulad natin ang ating sarili sa isang tupa na nawawala sa gitna ng pastulan, pilit sumisipol ang Pastol ngunit tayo’y nagbibingibingihan sa kanyang sipol. Marahil siguro ay kailangan natin ng malakas lakas na tawag galing sa kanya para maramdaman natin ang kanyang presensya.
Sa panahon ng kwaresma, magnilay tayo at tignan kung gaano na tayo kapalit sa Diyos. Panahon na rin na bumalik sa kanya, panahon na upang tayo’y sabihan na Kristiyano muli. Ngunit hindi lang naman sa panahon ng kwaresma na tayo’y matatanggap na kristiyano ngunit dapat natin itong gamitin sa pang araw araw nating buhay sa lupa. hanggang dito nalang ang aking munting blog para sa gabi. Maraming salamat sa pagbabasa.
Council of Green, I won
This was about me and my friends joining a competition last November. It was actually a competition made by Microsoft entitled, Microsoft Imagine cup. It was a year by year competition participated by almost all countries world wide, one would be is our country, Philippines.
I actually spearheaded my barkada to come up with one team for this event. And this would be it and we named it Council of Green. History is it that I am a part of the team, I am so happy right now that I couldn’t even start my thesis work up until. Well, maybe this would be a little fine now. thanks.
A letter to whoever he/she is
Hey, Actually I don’t know how I would get back to your memo. At first, I was thinking if I’ll be spending much time composing one and I don’t know what to inscribe even. Honestly, I don’t want to hurt you but I am on my limits now and I don’t even know how to relay to you what I am into. I am reflecting and slowly seeing a plethora of ideas, and tribulations which comes and definitely going. I don’t even know and probably comprehend why you keep advising me that you’re madly in love with me and here you are stabbing me? Wait; are you at your right feet telling me that? Loving me while hurting me? Is it love you are calling then? Is it? I don’t see the point you are having. I think you’re keeping the extremities of life and love.
Well, months past and I am still walking to a wrong path of life. Months of perpetuation of what is definitely have ended nearly at the beginning of our relationship. Those lies you’ve shared to me. Those itsie-bitsies you’re doing. But what? I defended it that I risk my all just to have you. Still remember? I guess you don’t even treasure it for once. Hope you had, or I guess you are having. But anyway, that’s was long outdated.
Honestly, I am sick and tired of putting our relationship to risk. I keep on saving it that for which people around us will not blame me for. I want to gain respect to those people around us but for this very moment I just need to look for my inner peace. Maybe this will be the time that I would find one. I am not saying that having you is like living on a hell, I still see heaven at the start but as time pass by you’re slowly changing that had to face those questions and hopefully I am answering it now. Sorry, but this time I am tired of defending, I am tired of saving us maybe we might need to breathe some air and chill. It is much better for us if we separate ways to better free our minds from sudden effects of relationship we had.
I am thankful really for having you. For once I was loved by you. For once I had emotions for someone and feel love mutually. Time can tell when will be our goodbyes and welcomes. It is for time when we see what He planned and in stored for us. Maybe our relationship was not for the better, or maybe this relationship is not working for now. For our hearts will beat again for that true gent [for me] gal for you. It is about time, it is.
Tomorrow, its over
Some may know what I was in last night. I cried for leave out some time. I confronted by someone I love and turned out bad. Well, at first I was so down, and depressed for reason that I had to because of what is going.
Jr, texted me if I want to go out last night and gave him a reply. Past 11pm Jr got into our house. Well there’s nef texting Jr then we decided to get her and be in the cab. Anyhow, past 1 we left Pateros and rushed to Eastwood. Woohh~ We searched for some open bars in which we spent time together. Woo~ San Mig Light and Sisig go go go! I drank 4 bottles while Jr got 2 while nef, a glass. We left QC by 4.40 am and got home by 5am. Well, pretty cool.
For that travel, trip we had given me certain realizations that I won’t be sad of things that is really set for me. Well, I was able to move on with the thing I first got my depression. For I won’t see the point of crying for a girl which she wants friendship over relationship. I respect whatever decision you had and thank you for being there and for which you settled being friends than lovers. I may treasure more if we had this from now on. yeah?
I went to school early and managed to visit Kuya in His house. Prayed over afterwhich I had to pick this certain paper beside Mommy [Mama Mary]. Guess what I got?
“Your Father knows what things you have need of before you ask Him” – Matthew 6:8
How perfect. I remember what I’ve told Kuya about. “Your will be done” and now I will continue to have this as my personal thought/philosophy
Thanks, so thanks
**just sharing some truth behind someone’s feelings. no need to comment.
just reading this composition is enough.
thank you guys and gals for dropping by!..:D**
The Truth Matters.
by jel zulueta
This is the time.
This is the truth.
Take it or Leave it.
It’s final.
This one sounds rude.
This one sounds harsh.
But what to do when that is the truth.
Truth hurts.
Reality Sucks!
You may hate this, but that’s the fact.
You may say its okay,
but i know deep inside you it’s not.
Yet i don’t wanna lie.
I don’t wanna hide.
So, I must burst it out.
I must say it.
I must confront it.
So to stop the agony of it.
I know your not in a rush, yet
I can’t force myself for something I can’t really be in.
Friendship is the only real thing.
It’s the only thing i could share and give in.
I’m not hiding anything.
I’m not like her or something.
But that’s the only thing i could offer.
Friendship that will last longer.
Don’t wait for so long,
When someone will come along.
Just go on and move along.
Cause i my self clear it all.
We’re friends and forever will be friends.
I appreciate every single thing.
I commend you for everything.
It’s just that i can’t return the same thing.
More than the boundaries of friendship,
I guess is not for you and i to live.
Pardonnez moi, for this kind of dilemma.
But This is the time
And This is the truth
I don’t wanna lie
I don’t wanna hide.
Enchanté!
So Much Drama.So Little Time
hey there josephbuluran
how are you mr. joseph?
Another domain name as been established on your name. What do you feel right now?
Honestly, i don’t know what to do. I’m updating all my wordpress accounts and planning to have my own as in own wordpress account on my own domain name.
Are you saying you have your own domain name?
yes, I have. I am currently building webpages that I will publish it through in a week or so.
What was your domain name anyway?
yeah, it is http://www.josephbuluran.com/
What will be your plan this coming November 1?
Yeah, we are planning to go to Nueva Ecija for a day or so and be back in Manila by noon or the next day. I am planning to do my Java Servlet machine project while I am on my grandmother’s tomb. It is a lot more exciting building project there. hehe.
What are you doing right now?
I’m currently building site for my friends. Now, I am reading some javascript layouts and hacking some codes for my website. After this blog I’ll be off to school and attend my VERTSOL class and IS-EBIZ class. I’m enjoying EBIZ right now. CODES for WEBSITES haha.
Anyway, that would be it for now.
badtrip ang manhid
wahh.. nakakainis.. ang manhid niya.. wahh.. sige lang magtatagalog na ako.. gusto ko lang maglabas ng inis at galit.. ggrrr… bakit ba hindi niya maramdaman na pinapatamaan na siya? bakit ba hindi niya maintindihan na mali na ugali niya? bakit ang kunat niya? bakit? alam mo yung ang sarap mong sapakin, sipain e.. alam mo yun?? hayy.. alam mo kung pwede lang kitang gripuhan ggripuhan na kita e.. sisipain pa kita pati.. hayy nakoo. nga naman oh~! the p word mehn.. naiinis ako~! ilang beses na kita sinisita sa ugali mo wala ka parin.. patuloy mo parin ginagawa yang mali..ang mahid mo tol, idol~! takte yan.. kaya siguro madami ng galit sa iyo ngayon? mayabang ka pa. feeling mo kung sino kang tao dyan. hoy umapak ka nga sa lupa.. tao ka hindi ka anghel. daig mo pa mga bagyo sa hangin na dala mo e. takte yan.. buti hindi bumabaha sa school? takte yan.. buti hindi bumabaha sa classroom, lagi ka pa naman kita kasama.. sa susunod alamin mo limitasyon mo a.. at sa susunod hindi na kita sasantuhin, kung sino ka pa. hindi purket marunong ako ng isang martial arts e ahead na ako.. lalaban ako ng mano mano lumaban ka lang bakla. naiinis ako. grabe. badtrip. wala pa tuloy ako sa mood ngayon.
one sweet day
true love is not how you forgive, but how you forget, not what you see but what you feel, not how you listen but how you understand, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
I came home this morning from one of our house somewhere in Rizal as I immediately let my laptop turned on and made myself online.
But before that, early this morning after I have my Monday routine with my mom eating at Jollibee I went straight home. And as I was riding the jeepney, my mp3 played Boston by Augustana. Well, that was my favourite song this time and as I was listening to it. I reflected to the song and think of possible sweet moments. My mind starts to break out of my brain shell and move to space. Looking at dreaming for a possible sweet moments with a girl, who is currently unnamed. Well, I don’t know who will be that girl in my day-dream. My moment was cut off as I went down the jeepney to take a walk going home.
After that, as I turned on my laptop. I was browsing the internet and checking some of my account when I saw one of my friends page and have this video published. I watched it in real time. I was struck and felt it sweet that his girl gave something like this to him. Well, a simple video clip that I really found it sweet, greeting him on his birthday and as well greeting him there monthsary. At the end of the video I came to see this line, “true love is not how you forgive, but how you forget, not what you see but what you feel, not how you listen but how you understand, and not how you let go but how you hold on.” The idea is there oh my~! This certain act gave me a chance to blog over even though I have a tight schedule work. Really find it sweet though.
Honestly, I find it sweet and as I chuckle it made me kilig too as I think of the time I will be having a girl having this kind of sweet trait? When would she be present in my life? I’m dumb I guess I had some before that I didn’t mind at all. Anyway, I am still waiting for what Kuya will give me. Hhhmm.. “para sa Kanya ba o para kanino?”
That’s for now. Ahaha.. well, looking forward for a brighter day.
