I would rather do nothing and be happy than do something that I won’t love
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Isa sa magandang nangyari ay nang makilala ka
hindi ako mapakali noong una kang makita
bawat araw ay hinihintay na
nagbabakasakali na ika’y aking makasama
Sandali palang ng una tayong maging magkaibigan
sa sandaling iyon isa ng magandang dahilan
upang ibigin ang isang tulad mo
na iiyakan ko sa taong mawala sa piling ko
sadyang ikaw lang laman ng puso ko
hanggang ngayo’y ‘di mawala sa isip ko
ang iyong mga ngiti na nagbibigay kulay
sa buhay na ito na wala ng buhay
buong puso ko’y iaalay ko sa iyo
dahil sa iyo na umiikot and mundo ko
sadyang ginawa ang buhay kong ito
para mahalin ang anghel na tulad mo
hindi pa malalim ang ating pagtitinginan
kung iisipin ito’y nasa unang baitang
sa isang mantinding pagmamahalan
na nagsisimula sa simpleng magkaibigan
hanggang dito nalang ang tula ko para sa iyo
sana ito ay magustuhan mo
tanging nailathala upang maipahayag ko
ang bawat salitang sinasambit sa harap mo
Life time
How can I be free?
In this world full of fallacy
How can I be free?
If the world is just fantasy
I cannot move on from a journey of my past
I cannot live in and still never last
Who can bring light to my dark shattered world
That I cannot see anything since the day I bark the world
People save me please, that I might breathe again
To smell flowers blossoms that before I can smell
I don’t want to waste my remains here on earth
I don’t want to waste the beauty of the world
If somebody can save people like me
that still lives underground from reality
A letter to whoever he/she is
Hey, Actually I don’t know how I would get back to your memo. At first, I was thinking if I’ll be spending much time composing one and I don’t know what to inscribe even. Honestly, I don’t want to hurt you but I am on my limits now and I don’t even know how to relay to you what I am into. I am reflecting and slowly seeing a plethora of ideas, and tribulations which comes and definitely going. I don’t even know and probably comprehend why you keep advising me that you’re madly in love with me and here you are stabbing me? Wait; are you at your right feet telling me that? Loving me while hurting me? Is it love you are calling then? Is it? I don’t see the point you are having. I think you’re keeping the extremities of life and love.
Well, months past and I am still walking to a wrong path of life. Months of perpetuation of what is definitely have ended nearly at the beginning of our relationship. Those lies you’ve shared to me. Those itsie-bitsies you’re doing. But what? I defended it that I risk my all just to have you. Still remember? I guess you don’t even treasure it for once. Hope you had, or I guess you are having. But anyway, that’s was long outdated.
Honestly, I am sick and tired of putting our relationship to risk. I keep on saving it that for which people around us will not blame me for. I want to gain respect to those people around us but for this very moment I just need to look for my inner peace. Maybe this will be the time that I would find one. I am not saying that having you is like living on a hell, I still see heaven at the start but as time pass by you’re slowly changing that had to face those questions and hopefully I am answering it now. Sorry, but this time I am tired of defending, I am tired of saving us maybe we might need to breathe some air and chill. It is much better for us if we separate ways to better free our minds from sudden effects of relationship we had.
I am thankful really for having you. For once I was loved by you. For once I had emotions for someone and feel love mutually. Time can tell when will be our goodbyes and welcomes. It is for time when we see what He planned and in stored for us. Maybe our relationship was not for the better, or maybe this relationship is not working for now. For our hearts will beat again for that true gent [for me] gal for you. It is about time, it is.
Tanging Hiling
Mahal, sana andyan ka pa
Marahil hindi mo ramdam na mahal kita
Ngunit gumagawa ako ng paraan para magmahal ka
Upang tayo’y magkasama na
Hindi ako nagpapakita na gusto kita
Pero hanggat maaari andyan para masilayan ka
ang isang anghel, sa aking alaala
Hindi kayang mawala sa piling ng isa
Mahal ko, tumingin ka
Pakinggan ang bawat sinasambit kong letra
Masilayan mo sana ang lihim kong pagnanasa
nawa’y pansinin na at bigyang hustisya
Mahal kita, mahal kita
Kita mo naman diba?
Kulang ang isang tula
para makita kung gaano na
Kailan kaya ika’y mapapasakin
Kailan kaya ako’y iyong papansinin
Kailan kaya makakamit ang tamis ng pagsasama
Sana’y makamit na sa isang pagkikita
Hindi ako naghahangad ng ano mang yaman sa mundo
Kundi ang isang matamis na oo
Galing sa bibig ng isang princesang tulad mo
Na mamahalin ko gumuho man ang mundo
marapatin mong ipadama ko
Ang pagmamahal ko sa iyo
Mahal ko ito lang ang hinihiling ko
dahil, ikaw lang ang ligaya ko
Tomorrow, its over
Some may know what I was in last night. I cried for leave out some time. I confronted by someone I love and turned out bad. Well, at first I was so down, and depressed for reason that I had to because of what is going.
Jr, texted me if I want to go out last night and gave him a reply. Past 11pm Jr got into our house. Well there’s nef texting Jr then we decided to get her and be in the cab. Anyhow, past 1 we left Pateros and rushed to Eastwood. Woohh~ We searched for some open bars in which we spent time together. Woo~ San Mig Light and Sisig go go go! I drank 4 bottles while Jr got 2 while nef, a glass. We left QC by 4.40 am and got home by 5am. Well, pretty cool.
For that travel, trip we had given me certain realizations that I won’t be sad of things that is really set for me. Well, I was able to move on with the thing I first got my depression. For I won’t see the point of crying for a girl which she wants friendship over relationship. I respect whatever decision you had and thank you for being there and for which you settled being friends than lovers. I may treasure more if we had this from now on. yeah?
I went to school early and managed to visit Kuya in His house. Prayed over afterwhich I had to pick this certain paper beside Mommy [Mama Mary]. Guess what I got?
“Your Father knows what things you have need of before you ask Him” – Matthew 6:8
How perfect. I remember what I’ve told Kuya about. “Your will be done” and now I will continue to have this as my personal thought/philosophy
Thanks, so thanks
**just sharing some truth behind someone’s feelings. no need to comment.
just reading this composition is enough.
thank you guys and gals for dropping by!..:D**
The Truth Matters.
by jel zulueta
This is the time.
This is the truth.
Take it or Leave it.
It’s final.
This one sounds rude.
This one sounds harsh.
But what to do when that is the truth.
Truth hurts.
Reality Sucks!
You may hate this, but that’s the fact.
You may say its okay,
but i know deep inside you it’s not.
Yet i don’t wanna lie.
I don’t wanna hide.
So, I must burst it out.
I must say it.
I must confront it.
So to stop the agony of it.
I know your not in a rush, yet
I can’t force myself for something I can’t really be in.
Friendship is the only real thing.
It’s the only thing i could share and give in.
I’m not hiding anything.
I’m not like her or something.
But that’s the only thing i could offer.
Friendship that will last longer.
Don’t wait for so long,
When someone will come along.
Just go on and move along.
Cause i my self clear it all.
We’re friends and forever will be friends.
I appreciate every single thing.
I commend you for everything.
It’s just that i can’t return the same thing.
More than the boundaries of friendship,
I guess is not for you and i to live.
Pardonnez moi, for this kind of dilemma.
But This is the time
And This is the truth
I don’t wanna lie
I don’t wanna hide.
Enchanté!
So Much Drama.So Little Time
Pagdurusa, umalis ka na
masakit, mahirap, magulo, masarap
kung titignan ang buhay sa isang iglap
ngunit isang iglap lang ba ang kailangan
upang maharap ang tunay na kalagayan
pananampalataya ang unang nilalapitan
pag may problema na ang sino man
meron nga bang sasagot sa tanong?
kung ang Dios mo nama’y natutulog ngayon
lubhang mahirap pag problema’y dumating na
ngunit meron nga bang solusyon ang mga tala
Dios ko! bakit nga ba nagkaganoon?
itong buhay na aking inampon
kay hirap gumawa
pag problema’y paligid ligid
bakit nga ba nandyan?
bakit ka nga ba nasundan?
Araw at gabi ikaw ang nasa isip
hindi makatulog miski isang idlip
Buhay ko’y para saan pa
Kung ako’y suko na?
Hay nako, ikaw problema ka
Dala mo’y pagdurusa
Sa isang tulad kong walang kwenta
Hindi na malaman kung para saan pa
Kaibigan, asan ka?
Pagkakaibigan ay ano nga ba?
Para sa atin noo’y nagkakasama
Parating nagkikita para mapasaya ang isa’t-isa
Parating kausap ano man ang porma
Laging naiisip pag nagkawalay na
Laging nasasabik na muling Makita
Laging nagnanais na bukas makasama
Upang puso’y muling tumibok na
Pusong tumitibok ano bang hangad
Pusong nagdaramdam ano bang hanap
Pusong umiiyak siya bang dahilan
Pusong bato bakit nagkaganyan
Saan ba hahantong ang pagkakaibigang nabuo
Kung tuluyang pagsasama’y unti-unting gumuguho
Kinalimutan na nga ba ang isang tulad ko
Isang kaibigan, ibubuwis lahat para sa iyo
Kung sasabihin mong hanggang salita ako
Hindi ako naghahangad na ako’y pakinggan mo
Ang tanging hiling ko lang na sana’y ibalik mo
Ang nakaraan natin na hinahanap ko
hey there josephbuluran
how are you mr. joseph?
Another domain name as been established on your name. What do you feel right now?
Honestly, i don’t know what to do. I’m updating all my wordpress accounts and planning to have my own as in own wordpress account on my own domain name.
Are you saying you have your own domain name?
yes, I have. I am currently building webpages that I will publish it through in a week or so.
What was your domain name anyway?
yeah, it is http://www.josephbuluran.com/
What will be your plan this coming November 1?
Yeah, we are planning to go to Nueva Ecija for a day or so and be back in Manila by noon or the next day. I am planning to do my Java Servlet machine project while I am on my grandmother’s tomb. It is a lot more exciting building project there. hehe.
What are you doing right now?
I’m currently building site for my friends. Now, I am reading some javascript layouts and hacking some codes for my website. After this blog I’ll be off to school and attend my VERTSOL class and IS-EBIZ class. I’m enjoying EBIZ right now. CODES for WEBSITES haha.
Anyway, that would be it for now.
badtrip ang manhid
wahh.. nakakainis.. ang manhid niya.. wahh.. sige lang magtatagalog na ako.. gusto ko lang maglabas ng inis at galit.. ggrrr… bakit ba hindi niya maramdaman na pinapatamaan na siya? bakit ba hindi niya maintindihan na mali na ugali niya? bakit ang kunat niya? bakit? alam mo yung ang sarap mong sapakin, sipain e.. alam mo yun?? hayy.. alam mo kung pwede lang kitang gripuhan ggripuhan na kita e.. sisipain pa kita pati.. hayy nakoo. nga naman oh~! the p word mehn.. naiinis ako~! ilang beses na kita sinisita sa ugali mo wala ka parin.. patuloy mo parin ginagawa yang mali..ang mahid mo tol, idol~! takte yan.. kaya siguro madami ng galit sa iyo ngayon? mayabang ka pa. feeling mo kung sino kang tao dyan. hoy umapak ka nga sa lupa.. tao ka hindi ka anghel. daig mo pa mga bagyo sa hangin na dala mo e. takte yan.. buti hindi bumabaha sa school? takte yan.. buti hindi bumabaha sa classroom, lagi ka pa naman kita kasama.. sa susunod alamin mo limitasyon mo a.. at sa susunod hindi na kita sasantuhin, kung sino ka pa. hindi purket marunong ako ng isang martial arts e ahead na ako.. lalaban ako ng mano mano lumaban ka lang bakla. naiinis ako. grabe. badtrip. wala pa tuloy ako sa mood ngayon.
